Break on through to the other side

This afternoon I have felt well.

This afternoon I can look at the picture below and literally laugh out loud. I look like a grumpy old lady. I was just trying not to think about the fact that I was getting someone else's blood because it grossed me out. Still does actually - it's in there! But it helped me.

Lots of things helped me. People helped me the most. To know I was and am so loved made it all easier to bear. Thank of you for flowers, cards, messages, visits, and most of all prayers.

The Lord has helped me. I've given this all to him. What will be, will be. He is with me when it's at it's best, and when it's at it's worst.

As a side note, if you're sick for like 3 months, get help. Don't just sit on your couch and hope that you'll get better. Because that's what lands you in the E.R. I'll be kicking myself for it for a long time.

This kid is beautiful. He's a miracle, really. Because more biological children for us is kind of a question now. He's handled everything really well. We're so grateful to live close to family so that he could stay with his grandparents while we were at the hospital. He got to come visit us at the hospital and it would make me so happy. All the nurses loved him. I'm so excited to be able to take care of him again. The little things like making his lunch and giving him his bath.
Bad photo of some of my beautiful flowers. Frankie made me the card.


The carnage on my poor arms after we got home.

Let me tell you about Jeremy. About Jeremy rubbing my back and handing me my water when I was in excruciating pain. Sleeping on the hard couch next to me the whole week. Helping me shower and do my hair and get dressed. Monitoring my meds. Telling me I still look beautiful even though my stomach is swollen and my face is disfigured. Telling me it's going to be okay and that he has faith in my strength. I love my husband. His touch soothes me and his presence is sometimes all I need. He is a prince among men. I am so glad to have him.

This was the first time at the hospital that I wasn't connected to the IV, and all I wanted was to sit by Jeremy.

Since he's here - I'll make it. And it's as simple as that.